I will apologize now for the times I lose my wit and sarcasm and become one of those mushy, fussy, sissy, sobby, wussies that you usually find in the infertility chat groups. You will find no tender wishes of ‘baby dust’ here… but I do have my moments. (I’ll admit I am often a wus and sobby but I do try to NEVER be mushy.. LOL.. OK.. not often anyway.
I AM 55% GOTH!
Oh My Goth! You Goth, Girl. There is a good chance I am bi. Freakiness pumps through my viens, but I can still laugh at myself.
All of your comments and support have been amazing, I really appreciate them.
I’m currently feeling sad and a bit displaced.
I don’t know if I will fit into this blog space anymore, i'm all out of laughter at the moment and i’m not actively TTC because well.. that sorta takes two, also I’m not adopting right now or well.. doing much of anything.
We plan to have Poke see a urologist when he comes home for a visit, but that won’t be until May.Until then I’m kind of at a loss as to what my purpose here would/will be.
It is really strange to be home (Oklahoma) again, especially in such a small town. I have spent the last 6 years or so living in the Capital cities (WashingtonDC, Manila, Sofia), and now I am again living in a town of 1500. weird.
It hasn’t been a problem so far being in such a small town. I’m a little depressed and not being very active. I have done a lot of laying around and watching TV.
I know I’ll get over everything…. Eventually.
I’m sorry if I haven’t visited your blogs lately, I haven’t been able to make myself read the bogs. There are so many of you who I kept up with on a regular basis, please don’t feel neglected, I may yet be able to read you again.
We shall wait and see.
Last summer I did a lot of research on Gastric Bypass, I started that research up again this week. My mother had a lot of issues, most of which were caused by her obesity.I don’t want to be like my mother and die at the age of 59 and to do that I must lose some weight.I’ve been fat for 20 years and have never successfully lost more than 20 lbs.I’ve never kept any of that weight off for more than 6 months. So I’m researching the Bypass options again.With my families medical history I am predisposed to heart disease, diabetes, high blood pressure, edema (not sure if that is hereditary) and liver issues.Being fat is very dangerous for me.
If I keep my blog active the bypass info may be all I have to talk about, not very interesting for those suffering from infertility I know. But it is either that… or pretty much nothing.I’ll let you know .
If you have any ideas or suggestions please let me know.
Love you all so much.
~Sanorah
Posted at Friday, January 14, 2005 by Sanorah
Lioness January 17, 2005 06:45 AM PST I am so so sorry. There's nothing I can tell you really, just that I am so sorry and wish you all the best, to include your husband back and a very healthy, lively baby.
Cecily January 15, 2005 12:21 AM PST We'll be happy to hear about anything you write about. It's not your infertility we love you know!
Have you thought about lap band surgery as well? It's a lot less invasive, and you don't have to wait to get pregnant.
I know poke is going to be away, but you know, he could store a couple samples at a clinic near you and you could use those for IVF in absentia. I know you're probably not ready to think about that yet, but I thought of it the other day. My RE stored some frozen sperm of Charlie's in case he couldn't produce a sample or the sample was bad the day the egg retrieval was scheduled...
Love you honey. Hope you're holding up alright.
Menita January 14, 2005 08:31 PM PST You fit in here, with us, always, no matter what you are going through. We'll be here. That's what the BBB is all about.
Kris over at Broken or Not (http://icantbebrokencani.typepad.com/) had succesful gastric bypass surgery, you might want to get in touch with her (brokenornot@yahoo.com).
Sending much love to you.
Michelle January 14, 2005 08:27 PM PST Just started reading, but bookmarked your site. I'll keep reading no matter what. My friend had gastric bypass and it went super well for her. She also had secondary infertility and now is almost ready to have her new baby. I am former military so keeping you in my thoughts.
anotherjen January 14, 2005 08:03 PM PST I'll keep reading as long as you keep writing. You could write about a new rock you noticed in your yard and i would read it.
I think that's the difference between bullitin boards and blogs- if you're on a BB and your situation changes, it's expected that you'll drop away. Blogs are your journal- your thoughts and things you experience- people can choose to come and visit or not. It doesn't matter to me what you're doing- you're a smart, funny, strong woman whos writing i like reading.
If you decide to drop out of the infertility blog world- please start up another one. I think you're interesting, and i'd really like to continue to know you.
I think it's perfectly understandable for you to take some time. If my blog is one of the ones that you read- my door will always be open, if-ever/whenever you decide you're ready to pop by.
take all the time you need- take care of yourself. you've got a lot of people in your corner.
anotherjen
Tammy January 14, 2005 06:14 PM PST I mean San.
Sorry
Tammy January 14, 2005 06:13 PM PST My mother is having gatric Bypass in the next couple of months, We are in Canada but, she is going to the states for her surg. I think it is the only way out for some people. I have also contemplated it too. I am on the waiting list. I am just not sure I am ready to make that decision. I will wait and see. You should wait 2 years to become pg after and I don't know if i want to wait that long. Not that I have much of a choice in that matter.
Would you mind me asking...does your husband suffer form low sperm count? my hubby is suffering from testicular failure he has low levels of testestorne and higher levels of LH and FSH. As a result he is also impotent. He is going on testorone patches next month but that will stop what little production of sperm he has. This is our last month to try to concieve naturally. Big fat chance of that happening.
Anyway Sam. I think of you all the time and I hope things get better. Keep us posted on your gastric bypass. If you need any info I can maybe help you with it.
Stay strong and believe in your goodness.
Love Tammy
Christine January 14, 2005 03:24 AM PST Oh! I do hope you'll continue to post. I've been a fan of your blog for awhile now, and it would be sad to not have another place to check out every morning. But I understand how you're feeling. Just know that so many of us are pulling for you and would be interested to read about your life whether you're trying to conceive or not. Hey--gastric bypass is a great option for the morbidly obese but judging by the pictures you have posted at this site, you don't look even close to morbidly obese! Well thanks for your update and wanted to let you know that I've been thinking about "that girl at the twat-whatever" site (I'm not good at names) and have been saying a prayer for you. Hopefully God reads blogs too and he'll know who I'm talking about. Take care of yourself.
Julianna January 14, 2005 02:05 AM PST Sanorah, you have been through so much........too much for one person in the past month.
Take care of yourself.
That is all you can do right now, take care of yourself as best you can and continue to breathe.......
