A very Interesting artical about how male infertility varries from country to country or even city to city. Check it out.... LOOKING FOR A GEOGRAPHIC PATTERN TO SPERM COUNTS

My last period started on Dec 18^th and lasted an unusually long time, ending on about the 29^th.  Today, one week later I’ve started again.

WTF?

I’m crampy and bloated and have all the normal yuckyness, except that it’s entirely to early.  I just have no idea what to think of my body anymore.

In non bloody news…   I called HR today and they said they have sent me an ‘offer’ for the position I’d applied for. I haven’t’ received it yet but should get it today or tomorrow, so sadly/gladly I will be employed soon.  I have to get my clearance renewed so that will slow things just a tad but sometimes they will work someone based on their last clearance anyway until the paper work has all gone through.

I went to a couple of art stores Wed and bought some things to get started in Oil painting.  I haven’t’ oil painted in over 10 years but I’ve had the urge lately.  My most recent painting has all been in water colors but since I’ve arrived in Asia again I just haven’t been able to get into my water colors.  They just aren’t bold enough for my current feelings.

I still need a few items before I get started but I’m looking forward to trying this art form again.

~S

I've spent a lot of time rummaging through web pages to find things that hubby can take to promote more athletic sperm.

Arginine

L-Carnitine

Selenium

Vit B12

Acetylcarnitine

Coenzyme Q10

SAMe

Vit E

Ginseng

 Vit C

Zink

Clomiphene Citrate

Plus a few others that have sketchy studies showing they 'might' help.

That's a lot for one man to swallow!

Or how about an online pharmacy that let you  PICK  your own  vitamins (from a list they provide of course) then they pack them into a neat brown horse pill, bottle them and ship them your way.   Are Custom Made Vitamins such an unrealistic idea?

I have serious concerns that I'll never have a child, not because my husbands sperm suck, but because I'll walk into his bathroom one morning to find him choked to death on a dozen pills.

~S

I'm still here but the hubby has been home all week and I've been sick, both things that keep me from blogging.  I'll come around more after the new year.

~S

4 Jobs I have had:

-Manager of a Veterinarian clinic

-Postman at a university (had my own rout)

-Officer Manager to Deputy Chief of Mission – Bulgaria

-Manager of a Pet Store

4 movies I watch over and over:

-Practical Magic

-Duce Biggilo

-Splash

-Sever Brides for Seven Brothers

4 Books I have read 4 times or more:

-Gone With the Wind (Margaret Mitchell)

-Clan of the Cave Bear (jean M. Auel)

-Dragon Song (Anne McCaffrey)

-Ender’s Game (Orson Scott Card)

4 songs that are often stuck in my head:

-Aint no Sunshine (Kenny Rogers)

-Scientist (cold play)

-White Rabbit (Jefferson Airplane)

-A Case of You (Joni Mitchell)

4 Favorite Foods:

-Spicy Cashew Chicken (Thai Style)

-Mushroom Soup & Chicken over Rice

-Italian Sausage with pasta and marinara

-Smooth Sweet milk chocolate

4 Things in life I wish were Different:

-Wish I lived closer to my Sister

-Wish my husband had better sperm

-Wish my mother had lived to meet my someday children.

-Wish I could lose weight and keep it off.

When I showed up sporting a neon sign flashing “bleeding” across my forehead, they declined to even bother with a Beta.  I tried to explain that we could go ahead and do it to be sure, but me not speaking more than a smattering of Thai and the nurses having about the same skill in English resulted in still no beta. 

I didn’t feel like trying to convince someone and gave it up.  I’m convinced already.

I spoke briefly with Dr. Cold, he wasn’t surprised it hadn’t worked. Next step should be IVF + ICSI, the only problem being money.  Hopefully I’ll get a call back on this job and start work in January so I can afford to do this sometime late spring.

In the mean time I’m going to try to locate a Urologist who specializes in male infertility as well as an acupuncturist for the darling hubby to see.

I imagine my blog is going to be rather dull for a while, hope I survive the wait.

~S

HPT Neg of course.

Beta is tomorrow evening.

Don’t get me wrong, there are many many very nice Thai women, but it is common knowledge that there are a certain number of them here who have one goal, which is to snag an American man (and his money) by any means they can.  One common way they do this is by getting pregnant as fast as they can in hopes of tying that man to them with that child.

One guy in the office is one of those guys, not the brightest person I know and after knowing this girl for one month she and her older daughter had already moved into his apartment and she was pregnant.  This I was wasn’t holding against her, I figure if he’s dumb enough to fall for it, more power to her.

What I DO have a serious problem with is that she arrived at a Christmas party we attended tonight clearly showing at some 4 months pregnant or so and she jumped right into the bowl of spiked punch. I mean she shoulda just stuck a straw in the punch bowl!

I whispered to my husband.  “doesn’t she know that is spiked?”  Then I made him go say something to the guy, cause of course once he realized she was drinking spiked punch he would let her know and she would quit and no harm done right?

Except when my husband said something to this guy, he laughed and said, “Ahh.. it doesn’t matter, she had 8 beers last night”.

Oh MY GOD!

I personally noted her refilling her glass at least 5 times, but I was outside on the balcony part of the time so I’m sure I missed some.  She was drinking it like she had just emerged from a long trek across the Sahara.  No lie.

I was furious. 

She drank her fill and they left rather early (before the food was even out), I later heard one of the other husbands comment that he thought she was quite tipsy when she left.

There is just no excuse for this, I really don’t get it.

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In other news, I tested this morning but it didn’t work. The only test I had around the house was about 2 years old and had been in storage while I’d been stateside. It never showed any lines at all.

I bought two new ones on the walk home tonight and I’ll try one out in the morning. I’m fairly certain it will be negative, my breasts have lost all their tenderness and I figure that’s not a good sign.

We shall see.

~S

Still spotting but I’m more convinced it’s AF on her way. I may use a HPT tomorrow morning just to get it over with.

Mad 4 dozen yummy frosted Christmas cookies today (half for a party tomorrow).

In pretty decent spirits anyway..

~S

Sometimes the littlest things make me feel so loved.

I woke up last night on my stomach, which is unusual for me, big breast (which are currently very tender) and stomach sleeping = back ache. 

Anyway… I woke up on my stomach and my husband is laying close to me on his side and has my ass cheek cupped in his hand.

It really made me smile, and of course I didn't wana move then so I stayed on my stomach for a long time just loving his touch, he even gave my bum a good squeeze once in his sleep. : )

I know that may not seem like much, but my husband is not a snuggler so when I get good touches from him, especially unconscious ones, it makes my heart feel better.

I do love me some Scooter.

This should give you some idea of how long i've loved this fella!

Also note the Acid washed jean jacket!